If you want to make me happy...

People who come randomly on this blog and don’t know me personally, could get the picture I’m really pessimistic/sad/annoying/never smiling person.
In real life…I’m a complete opposite. Yes, I have my downs in the mood (that’s why I get them all out on this blog), but generally I’m a really happy person!
Here is a small list of things that can put a smile on my face within five seconds…

- when my dog wakes me up in the morning, licks me on the nose and looks at me with those brown eyes with looooong eyelashes
- when I make coffee to my boyfriend in the morning, and he gives me a hug and makes pancakes in the evening
- when Vecernjak publishes book of Paolo Coelho for less than 5 euros
- when I find a comic from Matakovic, and then spend hours smiling with ought control because I remember some of the cool jokes in flash-backs
- when blue light appears on my mp3 player
-when somebody actually smiles to my morbid jokes
- when I’m in a bad mood and somebody gives me a juice
- when I say if I had a load of money I would buy a big carrot and somebody actually get’s where the joke is from
- when there’s a rush in a tram and people are nervous and cranky and I don’t give a flying poop coz a great song is playing in headphones of my mp3 player
- when my Martens shoes don’t fall apart exactly one year after
- when I realize there are still people who like old cartoons like Buggs Bunny and Donald Duck
- when I find in my closet whole bunch of old Dylan Dog and Alan Ford comics
- when I read a good post on blog and that idea makes me think for next few days
- when I meet people from all over the world and than chat with them over msn in the middle of working hours
- when V. sends me sms or talks to me over msn
- when somebody reads my too long posts and puts a comment on it
- when a sun light wakes me up and I realize am at home in Sibenik
- when I spend hours on the first sun after the winter in Daba, having cofee with Gogec and Mario
- when M. holds my hand to stop me from tickling him :)
- when even this small list can make me happy

just for me...

Lately, I’m in a great/horrible chaotic state.

Great, coz there were so many nice situations.
Horrible, coz it’s impossible to keep up with all these situations till their end.
Chaotic, coz I need to choose what I really want.

I just know it’s great to feel alive again. The only thing that sucks,is that I might disappoint someone, probably myself the most. And maybe I’ll fuck up (pardon my French) someone else on the way.

And all this is happening now when I need to work. And only I do, is sit in front of computer and think. I practice speech I would tell to one or another side, convinced I’ll be smarter tomorrow after I get some sleep. And its truth what they say…time heals everything, if nothing, it removes the sharp evidences. And I can’t tell what they are.

Who ever is reading this can think it’s something related to him or her. But only one of you who are reading this has right. And I can’t tell who it is. The one who knows, please keep your mouth...

There are not enough people with balls. Or better said those crazy ones. Those who can f*** off one life and start a new one, withought regretting about the last one. That’s why people stay in the same city and watch the same people. Stay in the same relationship, have the same neighbors and the same colleagues. They put up with crapp, but comfort themselves they are used to them and that same crapp is waiting for them somewhere else.
Take things in your own hands and make something your neighbors, colleagues and even friends will talk about behind your back is hard for everyone.
And if we made it once in our life, it’s not likely you will make it again. Us, who are doing it (it’s exactly what I’m trying to do now – change things) are mad, self-centered, cocky and rude – in the eyes of others.

And what are we wihtought others? You can’t live alone!

Don’t use your imagination! You wacky people! ;D